Saturday, 5 September 2009
A depressing day ..
COme on Good things happen and Bad things creep in !! so what I will not digress .. No matter what I will keep working hard !! failures occur even though it is not your fault .. and you worked damn haed !! The one time with RF and now with MW .. but that's that ..It is have been my life .. Nothing has come to me easy !! Took me one year to get a job and my SSN at UF .. when people same as me .. are getting GA's and RA's so what !! This is how I am and my luck .. I have never taken the easy path .. life will beat you down when you take the difficult path .. This kept on happening .. this is how it is .. I am all alone at a place when there are people who have so many people they know and there to help .. If I am down I know there is nobody there to help me .. so I do not have the time to settle down and think about my failures .. if I do that I will be left behind !!!! Most prob I took 3 of the toughest subjects when I reached UF and now also it is 3 of the toughest .. but that is how I am .. I dont know life without a struggle .. People who know me close know that !! I have failed no doubt .. but I have reached so far .. even after the fiasco in class 9 ..had not kept me behind .. Nothing will keep you at the same place if you do not want to be there ...
being a Mediocre is not a guilt but if you do want to just settle down with that then that is your fault and it is a sin not to try .. Things Like this always Depress me !! you try so hard but still there is no result .. but come on man !! be happy at least you tried !! There will be a another chance man .. you have to gather yourself and come up again .. It is just as it is ... Life is harsh but that is what makes you do things and makes you more experienced .. makes you work hard !! and even if Nobody is helping you ... There is always GOD .. I know he is there !!! and he is there with me .. if He was not there WHy is it then I am the only India working at the UF bookstore .. Getting a Job will be easy for some guys .. but for me it was difficult .. people who had a SSN could not get a job!! so no doubt it was difficult .. so you could just Imagine me getting a job without any reference and without any help !!! I have found a new respect for GOD after I met John and his family .. It does not matter to me which God they believe in .. It is just that they are happy with what they live with and they dont have much and they have problems but still they are happy with what they have and they never complain .. This is how I want to be .. work hard and believe and things will get better .. since things cant be the same always man !! they will change since that is a Law !! and you have to wait for it !!!
Somebody's always watching !!!! He sees but waits !!
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ETERNAL DREAMS ....
- SaNdeep AnaNd
- Rourkela/Bhubaneshwar, Orissa, India
- There is so much to life that is still missing .. Have to experience So much more and have already found so much .. Time is running so fast seems so transitory and fleeting .. I want to catch hold of the time .. Turn it back and visit the places that I have already been .. Want to see my childhood days again .. Want to know my friends again >>> Want to feel The first day in school again .. Want to trouble my teachers again .. Want to stand with my shirts off again when being punished by Madhusmita mam .. Want to play with my friends in the Sector-18 field again .. Want to bunk Computer tutions to play cricket again .. want to steal cricket cards again .. and get caught by the shopkeeper in front of my friends .. Want to go to shambhu sir's tution and Rao sir's Tution again .. Want to eat hot lunch cooked by my momy at 8:30 in the morning as she makes me gobble it down , when I am getting late to school .. Want to fight again to stand beside Carmel girls During annual day parade .. Want to sing in the annual day parade again .. Want to have annual sports meet again .. sTory Of mY childhood Want To re-live Everything aGain ....
THE PAGETURNER ...
There is so much yet to know .. Now I am just sitting at my place , quite possibly spending some last moments in India .. or may be not ..
We , (I mean all of us at The College Of Engineering and Technology)
have completed our four years , some successfully and some not so .. There are times that I remember that make me think that how fast Life at Bhubaneswar just came to a stop . I cannot Imagine that all my Four years at Dharmavihar is over.. There was so much to Jagmara than just paying the Huge "Electricity Bills " .. There was the changing inhabitants below .. There was of course the white cute cat (Puchurani) .. and then there was the wonderful quite atmosphere that surrounded the whole place .
First Year .. The 1st episode, Prelogue to the coming three years :
It was something inthe airs that intoxicated me .. It was August 23 I guess .. Bhubaneswar though so near was still a very new place to me . The First day will always be remembered and cherished .. I am writing this so that I dont forget .. I eventually forget everything and that disheartens me..
I wore my pink striped half shirt and entered college , completely nervous to the hilt .. There were these seniors glancing towards me .. as I was going on. I was a easy target , since I was 5'10.3'' tall and fat too .... still I got past and was there in the classroom If I remember correctly .. It was 217 .
Then I went inside and just sat down sat quitely and just waited for any reactions taking place on their side .
The are some people that I remember very well looking at that day .. The people I remember include L.N and there was Maruti , MAk among so many others . These were people who later on will become some Of my best Of friends . I was a little apprehensive , no doubt about that .. , But scared No .. I was not scared ..
Then there were the other sections too I remember them too .. But Vaguely .. My Life was too busy in my own section . Our sections had some of the finest boys ..
These include Srivatsa , Satty , Binayak , Boda .. ME of course and these people are some very bright People of CET .. I am proud Of all these Guyz .. Its a Pity that I dont have any Photos of the college rite here , but in the future I will have them ready ..
My First years were some of the best periods of my life .. There were basically three labs at that time .. They were so many memories that are still fresh .. sorry I could not complete this .. but will some day try to do that ..
.................................................Lets C ... leave it at that ..